I don't understand why grades are so important why people love to argue why technology is at the center of our lives
But most of all why grades represent how smart someone is why people can’t talk through things why social media is more important than real friends
What I understand most is why school is stressful why people don’t understand me why relationships tend to fail
Septet
Family
Family Small and closed minded Never there when I need them But somehow always there when I don’t I wish they could disappear I don’t want them near Anymore
List
In My Head
What’s in my head A mother who isn’t School exams that are ready to be failed Voices telling me I won’t succeed Pointless distractions killing my focus An ex that seems to slip his way back in Insecurities that keep me silent fogginess from countless lost hours of sleep The one person who makes all of the above disappear
Hold on
Hold on to Love
Hold on Hold on to things you love Even if it’s a childhood toy Hold on to ideas you love Even if that’s as far as they get Hold on to memories you love Even if they become faded Hold on to dreams you love Even if they seem far fetched Hold on to me Even when you think you aren’t loved
Color my world
Blue
Blue Her favorite long sleeved shirt, a chair in the classroom, the sky. A river flowing towards the sea, a bird chirping its song, the saddened words flowing from her mouth. His famous blueberry pie, a boy’s superman icecream, sweet and sour candies. A soft baby blanket, shiny dyed hair, rough beat up blue jeans. Blue can make you feel anything.
Life lessons
Heartless
I'm learning to love like I’ve never loved before And I'm learning to understand And I'm learning to let go Not hold on, when I get upset And I'm learning not to judge people at first glance And I'm learning not to overthink everything And I'm learning (though it sometimes really hurts me) Not to argue when I disagree And I'm learning to smile When I want to cry And I'm learning that it's much Much easier to be heartless
Couplets
I Try
I have never tried like I try now I know I must keep trying but I don’t know how
You have torn away my skin to leave me exposed My confidence and self esteem are starting to decompose
I can see you don’t try at all to understand All I ask for is one helpful hand
I try my best but you’re never proud These voices in my head have never been so loud
I am...
I Am Hopeful
I am a hopeful girl who still worries I wonder if it will happen again I see that this one is different I want it to last I am a hopeful girl who still worries
I pretend it never even happened I feel warm stickiness dripping down from both the physical and emotional wounds I touch every scar I have made I worry it’ll all happen again I cry at the thought yet no one sees my pain I am a hopeful girl who still worries
I understand my worries may be hard for you to fathom I say I will eventually forget and move on I dream you will help me through it I try to not care I hope you are unlike the rest I am a depressing girl who seems unconcerned
If i were...
If I Were in Charge of the World
If I were in charge of the world I’d cancel war, elections ,further electronic development, and also reality TV shows.
If I were in charge of the world There would be unconditional love, peace, and everyone would have something nice to say.
If I were in charge of the world You wouldn’t have ugly. You wouldn’t have pain. You wouldn’t have anger, or “I wish I could just forget.” You wouldn’t even have enemies.
If I were in charge of the world never ending happiness with a side of laughter would be a vegetable. Every life would have a meaning, And a person who sometimes forgot to appreciate, And sometimes forgot to smile, Would still be allowed to be in charge of the world.
Haiku's
It took eight months time Which I must say makes me blind To see you weren’t mine
They never see me Or who I know I can be I won’t let them see
I got my first job Unknowing what’s to come But my youth it robs